User: otherkin (posted by the_nyctomancer) Date: 2009-12-12 00:11 Subject: Crisis or Acceptence? Security: Public Mood: blank

I suppose this is what I get for having all my questions answered.

The whole otherkin thing, spirituality, and everything like that... lately I honestly haven't thought about it, or even cared. I know that everyone has their periods like that, but it's like I'm BORED with it or something. I'm not human, ok, got that. When you come right down to it, it's not that big a deal, and lately it has been on my mind as much as, say, my skin tone or eye color. It's just a part of everything else, so why should I care? I don't really have any questions about spirituality, life, the universe, or anything anymore, and when magic seems banal and simple...

I guess the only example I can put it that everyone can get is that when you were young, super super young, walking was interesting and fun and new. now you don't even think about it. or driving. When you start it's WOAH, and then later it's almost a chore.

Anyone else get this way sometimes?

User: otherkin (posted by synviver) Date: 2009-12-10 18:40 Subject: Fighting disbelief? Security: Public Mood: contemplative

I've been undergoing my Awakening for many years now, with more and more pieces of the puzzle that is my soul falling into place with all the new information and theories I've come across over the years. Things that resonate with me as having some sense of truth are things that I explore, to see if there is some connection to me with it or if it's simply that I recognize said things as being true. Whatever the outcome, I feel rejuvenated when the knowledge settles within me and I move onto the next piece of the puzzle armed with my newfound awareness.

However, in the time it takes to process that new information, I find myself wondering if I might not just be making myself into a Mary Sue, if you will, of myself. I mean, who wouldn't want to be an elf or a dragon inside their secret heart? I don't know if the self-doubt is what makes me sure that I'm on the right path, but it's definitely unnerving to have it popping up all the time.

I guess I'm curious if there are any other 'kin out there that have gone through the same thing. :x